Where will you be is where I will be.

falling in love

2010-12-22T07:33:00.000-08:00

愛：

I begin to fall in little by little.

I never thought i will landed in such situations.

I thought i will still be wallowing in shit with that ..

I realise i need u but i know u will push me away...

I miss u so much that i don't care what is true or not..

If only i can hug you everyday.. think of you every single hour.. hold you every min..

I need u...

Yiruma - Kiss The Rain (Full Version)

2010-12-20T08:20:00.000-08:00

Yiruma - River Flows in You

2010-12-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

He is talented! :)

Bad dream

2010-12-20T08:04:00.000-08:00

I dreamt of him again. I had forgotten whether it is last night or 2 nights ago. I can't believe myself dreaming of him again.

Will my heart die without being able to love another person again? It has been more than 2years.

He broke my heart once again in my dream. I can't believe that I am torturing myself again.

I feel like a idiot. I know. I can't help but to remember the entire incident. It seems like it happens yesterday only.

I always know i wasn't good enough for you. Though u didn't mention, i can understand.

I just want to erase ur footprints and start on a new path.

2010-12-20T07:56:00.000-08:00

I have many things to ramble about... but i guess i will get it started somehow.

I've gotten a new job with great colleagues to hang out with and somehow i enjoy my work to a certain extent...

80% of my life are drowning in work. 20% - My family and my friends.

At this point of time, i can't help but to emo. I need someone to be there for me, like my ann. But he isn't here for me. He is busy in his stuff. I got so much things to tell him, and i just want him to be by my side forever. Can i be selfish?

He will be off for training for 4months. It will be hell for me.

Did u think of me? Did u bother to msg me? Did u even gimme some of ur time?

I can't wait to see u soon. But it wont be that soon, i suppose.

2010-06-27T21:01:00.001-07:00

I fail... so sad... kill me.... =(((((((

2010-06-25T09:04:00.001-07:00

Live everyday like it's ur last...

2010-06-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

Just feel like typing an entry for them.
=) I recall a funny thing that ann said on Pika's bdae when xy wanna have a htht.. haha

Ann: "We have known each other for abt 10yrs. -.- what's there to htht.. "

That's really funny.. We prob run out of stuff to talk... haha..
Esp if u see that person rather often and known him for many many yrs..

O well, there was one instance whereby me and ann were at tiong subway.
Jus out of the blue, he mentioned that brian's dad had a clinic there, which is just beside subway. I think we had a small chat abt that.. haha.. See.. that really shows we are running out of topics to talk abt.. to think that we were chatting abt other's parents... *giggling* that's funny

May our friendship last till e very day i leave this world.. =)

I miss my bff... very very much. Why are u so busy huh. You promised to bring me to eat a lot of stuff and many treats.. haha. But u ain't fufilling them. Nvr keep ur promise.
Grrr.....

tata..

Love Hate ---Ship.. lol

2010-06-24T09:05:00.000-07:00

Mag has its ugly side and many sinful thoughts.

I am a stalker and have always been updated with this girl's blog. Can't tell u who is it and how's she related to me. But She's really nice and sweet with her bf. I like her personality. And she's pretty too.. She's charming. But i am damn evil. On one side, i am hoping she will last thru some of her obstacles that she's facing. On the other, i wish that she will lose her bf, sink into depression and wallow in her misery..

I am damn evil right. When i am in the right state of mind, i am pretty supportive of her.. nt that i always say smth on her blog or txt her. When i am in a bad mood, i hope, she fails terribly. I am sorry over this.. I think i've a split personality... On this Woman only.

However...

It's nt wat u think.

2010-06-24T08:29:00.000-07:00

It's really long ever since i wrote smth.
Life is kinda mundane. Indulging in dramas... and more dramas..

It has been long since we met up alr right, girls.. Are we drifting apart. Yes we are definitely are.
I haven't done much to maintain too. That's pretty sad. Are we no longer bounded by anything.

Met up with many peeps lately. Now we're emphasizing on quality rather than quantity time.. is it.. htht is no longer in anymore huh. I miss my bff, quite weird for me to say that right. Usually, we meet up more than once every wk.. But now no calls, no txt... Nooo sound at all.. I felt sad. Well, i come up with a few reasons.. busy( but i just want a txt ma..) , new buds in his life (army friends lo.. who else), family committments (since when he's a homely guy.), girls ( maybe.. ) Ahh.. whatever it's, i didn't bother contacting him either.. Mayb i am no longer needed. -.-
I always feel that it's e special bond we share.. cos he can tolerate my nonsense and i can tolerate his temper. But of cos, i know i can count on him. buds for life. =)

Nowadays, pple are disappearing from my life. Realise mayb it has been one sided on my part to maintain these. When i decided to rest awhile from all these, pple just poof into thin air. I am just nt gd enough.

I can't wait for that "outcome" to be out soon. Two wks more. Seriously, I am hoping that it'll turn out nt bad.. but it's tough, isn't it. The bloody 5hr test is really tough. When i am doing it, i start to doubt my ability but luckily in between many tests, there's this 5min break. I told myself, i can do this. And so i persist on and finish. There are some areas when i think i am pretty gd esp orientation and controlling when i am doing math eqns. I bet u won't know what i am doing. But i will nt divulge anything till e next entry.. haha.. just hope God bless me.

2009-02-04T23:01:00.000-08:00

Will we drift apart?
When each of us has their own priorities, it is so difficult for everybody to meet up.
When the path that we have chosen doesn't coincide with e rest, everybody seem to separate.
We just come and go in ur life, is that what it really should be. Insignificant presence. That's what it seems to be. You inject new stuff in ur life but e rest of us r keeping their pace tgt as one. We don't mind to walk a little faster or slower to accomodate urs. However, our thoughts doesn't go along with yours. It all voice down to priorities. A word of concern would be better than keeping in silence.

2009-01-12T19:56:00.000-08:00

Ok. The fever is not down yet but i am not going to exaggerate the feelings i have for edward.
Just take it that i am crazy over a fictional character. He is the love of my existence. I will admit that i am mad. ^^
My breaking dawn is yet to arrive....

Ok! Now for the impt news ahead. Prelims are on my way-e end of next mth. However, i am not prepared for it. Partly due to complacency and drown into storybooks. What a bad timing that i have chosen. For whatever reason it is, i can't afford to spent more time on others. It is time to sacrifice others. I am hoping for a miracle to happen on me. Well, start bucking up. . .

Thanks. ^^

2009-01-06T20:19:00.000-08:00

Recently, i am totally immersed in the world of edward. Though i always knew that this is jus a one-sided feeling from my side. I definitely enjoy his company and his friends and Bella. His feelings, his sweetness, his life intrigued me like no others. How I wish he can pull me into his world and make my heart beats jus for his sake. How I wish eternity is in my control. His words make my heart flutters and my hormones are raging just for him. This isn't sane. I could no longer held myself in control. I wish i can tell him I love him for every single day. But he doesn't belong to me.

I am really crazy abt him. I love Stephenie Meyer for creating such a character. Edward cullen. Just when will u arrive in my life just as you did in Isabella. If only time isn't a factor, i would have wait for u no matter when. I have my heart with u ever since i know u. Stories. . . myths. . .folktales, they're all a pity since they ain't true.

I ain't exaggerating. I would have love him just like bella did or even more extreme. Oh.. probably, fantasizing and reading too deep in it are causing all this emotions upheaval.

I am hoping e last bk "breaking dawn" will be out soon. It's not like I am hoping to finish asap. I am also feeling sad and a little depressed cause edward no longer appears after that. Eager to own it and yet afraid that he may just leave me forever.

Who really knows how i feel...

2008-12-29T20:13:00.001-08:00

In Less than 2 days... 2009 is on his way!

HaPpy New Yr.

I miss 2008.

2008-12-09T18:38:00.000-08:00

Today's the 10th day.

Hi, everybody, i m fine and well. Nth much in particular.
O well, if u wanna talking abt my fencing rating, i got into e 15th position out of 80 female students. I am doing well. Still thinking of continuing e lesson even after dec.
I am happy for all my buddies, most of them alr pop. Gd job. Daniel's goin to ord next wk. So happy for him.
I am getting used to my life. Some of my tuition resumed back agn this wk. Not as boring as before. Still thinking whether shld sign up for my jap course as e date to sign up is on dec21st and the lesson is going to start on next yr jan.
I want to take scuba-diving license. The plan date is ard next yr feb-march.
Not exactly busy, i still have some free time for me to study.
Have been running to train my stamina and swimming occasionally. This is in preparation with the ocbc cycling thing. 40k. I don't want to lag behind so much. I am doing it pretty well. Everything is going rather smoothly.
It's time to mug for my 2nd yr prelims. So far not too bad.

That's all for now.

2008-11-24T22:21:00.001-08:00

Love is like water; We can fall in it. We can drown in it. And we can't live without it.

2008-11-24T22:03:00.000-08:00

i will become a loner from now onwards. I need lots of private time for myself... i am going to neglect everybody and be selfish. -_-''' ok. mug hard.

2008-11-24T21:33:00.000-08:00

I m tired of being not needed.

I am not feeling emo. Ok.

2008-11-20T01:37:00.000-08:00

Okay guys and ladies!

Do take note. We're going to join the OCBC cycling marathon. Obviously, everybody're included. haha.. Ok. We need to lead a healthy lifestyle.
It's on the Feb 22 2009 (sun), already decided on the category(The challenge- 40km). It's 54bucks(e price for early birds).
Lynn and me confirmed joinin!!! For more details, go to e webby to check it out!!
We hope to get lots of pple joining with us ... obviously s09 girls and czg, all of u will be included.
haha.. We need to get ur confirmation asap.
DEADLINE: Next friday k.
Yippy..

2008-11-11T16:48:00.000-08:00

I m blind or love is blind??

2008-11-06T19:15:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYNN, MY GIRLFRIEND, SH NO.1

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPYYYYYYYY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUU.

LET'S PARTY TONIGHT! HAVE A GREAT DAY. . .

2008-11-04T18:14:00.000-08:00

Okok. It's time to update!

Yesterday was my lovely yuan ching's 21st birthday!

This wk is pretty hectic. Really feel like staying home for the next two wks. It's tiring to keep going out. Okay. First time for this yr, I stayed up late to complete my ac assignment till 2am and i still can't complete it. It's really tough. I am having a test later and tomorrow. Omg, I don't think i will be able to do well for the test later but tomorrow test, i've to get grade A. That's my favourite mod for e yr . haha. =) Tutorials keep piling up. Have to get started somehow if not it will be never ending.... I can do it! Cheer for ME!

Why almost everybody's entry emo... haha..

2008-10-30T05:14:00.001-07:00

YIPPY!

Gd News!

Pubbing tmr nite! Yippy. . .

Drink to plan. Plan to Drink....

2008-10-30T03:38:00.000-07:00

Zac effron is sOOoooooOOo handsome! He melts my heart countless times. When will i get such a gd looking bf provided he's clever, can sing well, well built and mesmerizing eyes...
OMG... can u see he's smiling at me... haha

Today i went to watch high sch musical with lynn! haha.. Sooooo sweet and nice! Guys, he's e role model!!! Follow him. haha..

2008-10-28T06:17:00.001-07:00

Finally my students' exams're finally over.. =) phew... take a break.

No mood to study. But I'll have to. Tutorials and assignments and tests are alr piling up.. Give me suggestions on what shall i do??

I was feeling a little lonely while i was on my way home today. Alone at e bus stop. alone walking. I had e thought of disappearing for awhile. Just awhile. Mayb a wk or two. Cut off all connections from everybody. I wan to re-charge myself. Finding my life and aims.
I probably will. Hmm.. probably after when things start settling down, and some probs r solved, i will let you guys know here.

Don't know why out of a sudden, my whole body starts to ache and warm. First sign to be sick.

I am just a phase that you probably have to go thru. You'll learn to do w/o me. You will. Slowly, it'll erase.
. . . . . there's more to life. that's what you say.

2008-10-26T07:46:00.000-07:00

Everybody entering ns.. leaving the lonely me here..

How i wish i can enter ns too! I wan to sign on! Then i can enter tekong too. haha -_-'''

I MISS my friends and buddies for life.

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Actually did u ever think that it's not the guys' fault but rather us? We're the problematic ones. Right. Easily emotional, selfish, expect better treatment from opp gender, irrational at times, lets feelings rule us instead of logic! But that's what makes us special. But some guys are really "WOODBLOCK". What to do! As ladies, we have to be opened and accept all their weakness, expecting that they would change for us ONE DAY. Though the one day will nvr come. We are really naive and gullible - stupid LO. Waiting for something that wouldn't come. Ain't we stupid! Will you continue walking on this no return route? Can you see ur future? Will you?

2008-10-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

The most beautiful things cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart

Quoted by sh. Awww... so sweet right. I am melting. I am feeling it.. haha.. Love is in the air. =)

2008-10-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

My bff!!! The last smart pic of him b4 enlisting today! can't wait to see him without his hair. Typical ns boy.. haha.. Hope to see him soon.

2008-10-24T06:53:00.000-07:00

Goh ka lynn went trekking. Leaving e lonely me in singapore...

My CF.... omg without u leh... i can't survive.

2008-10-23T20:34:00.000-07:00

My dearest Ann is enlisting today! I will be missing you so much. He's my bff. I Know he'll survive =) Though saw him just yesterday, but i can't imagine the days w/o him. I will b awaiting 8th nov, the first day he book out! Now that everybody have entered army. Left with pikachu and jeff is coming out soon. My social life shld cut down by quite a bit.

Yesterday I had a fulfilling and enjoyable day. But my expenses for yesterday was way too much. Wanted to shop with lynn next wk but how to??? I am pretty broke. haha.. All you need is just a card with money in it, then keep using to pay for everything. Guess how much I waste yesterday? Just yesterday. The whole of yesterday. 250bucks! Eat, drink, play, shop. Omg, just kill me. Just fly away like that. So i decided NOT TO waste anymore money. I am going to save. From now onwards, i can only spend 5bucks a day, go home and have dinner, no comics for a mth. Okok! Please do control me if you see me wasting my money like water. If not i don't have any money left for presents for Lynn, my dad, my sister, jeffrey, yc and more to go. Really BROKE! Ya.

2008-10-19T04:19:00.000-07:00

There is no tomorrow together unless you spend today in love. =)

Sounds sweet isn't it. Taken from pikachu.

I've been thinking. Thinking that it will be different.

2008-10-16T20:38:00.000-07:00

I am a loser.
If you ever disappear in my life, then i'll hate u forever!

2008-10-16T19:06:00.000-07:00

Today i have a weird feeling. Really weird. 6th sense! Smth is bound to happen on me.

Dislike CF. But Muz start to mug for Cf cuz i am getting further and further from my aim.
Ok. Next wk, 3assignments're up. This weekend is another hell awaiting for me. Never ending Tutorials and assignments. Fencing starts again after giving myself 1wk break. Let me die. Another tough obstacle awaits for me.

Heard from war war, jap lesson duration is 1long yr, once a wk. So how? shld take or not? there's another alternative which is half a yr, but 2times a wk, 3hrs each. Haha. sound like having lecture. Hmm.. Still thinking. O well. Consider that again.

Starting to feel down again. This is like a vicious cycle. Happy- Over-whelmed - sad - depressed. I ain't complicated and important. Everything starts shattering other than trying to keep my lively mode on. I begin to think I don't live for anything and my presence's nt impt.

I shld really reflect.

Mag

2008-10-14T19:38:00.000-07:00

Start of a new yr, I hope i can boost my self-esteem, increase my self-confidence level. I hope to change myself and more imptly, I wan to be happy.
Somebody msg me and wish me to find everlasting happiness and true love. This is rather funny. haha.. Do i look like I need to use my bdae wish on this two things? I am independent k! Like what kris say last yr, don't need guys to value my worth. haha. I don't wan to rely on anybody. But you guys can rely on me, cuz I feel i am rather reliable. Happiness will knock on my door when the time arrives. Not that i'm waiting for fate to arrange for me, I believe it will just turn up someday. =)
Meet up everybody soon. =)

2008-10-14T19:12:00.000-07:00

I am 20 Now.
Yesterday was a really nice day with lots of pple msging me Happy Bdae.
Thanks Thanks. I am touched by your kind gesture.
THANK YOU!

Now comes the sad part, my entire family kind of forget yesterday. Nobody wish me in the morning. Everybody was rushing to school, work. I was the last to leave the hse. Tho i wasn't expecting anything, but i just feel a bit sad. When i returned home, my dear youngest sis was e first one to wish me. Thanks. She's the only one who doesn't have to be reminded. O well, the rest not to mention my egoistic dad, forgot. What can i say? Disappointment filled up to the brim. It isn't abt whether receiving present or not. It's just a simple polite way to tell me that i'm in your mind, how impt i am to you. If shouting, screaming and scolding are e ways to show me that you're concern, please just get out of my life. Mum and sis, I am disappointed. It's ok tho. I am not hoping anything from you guys.

It was a really normal day, nth special happen. Other than studying and a few super nice msges from friends and cousins, I just waste my bdae nite like that.

2008-10-12T18:33:00.000-07:00

Saturday(11 oct) And Sunday(12 oct) were the best two days of this yr!
I wanna say thanks to My beloved friends and buddies for life!
{Ann, Pikachu, Jeff, Jon, Chuan, Ian, Yc, Xy, Junming ge and Far}
[Lynn, Char, Bao, Jas, Kris, Zg and Ah fit]
(Sh)
Many Many thanks to everybody. Everybody have done a lot for me. I hope I will be of some help to all of you in the future. I will miss everybody. With lots of love from mag.

Happy 20th Birthday to ANN.
Buddies for life! In less than 11days, you're going on the same path with jon,ian,chuan and jmg. I am not sad lo. Guys must train to be tough a bit. At the same time, i hope you can get yourself a super duper gd gf. haha... It's time to get yourself a life. =)

It has been a little rough these two days too. Not with regards to the celebration. Dad's reasoning is becoming from bad to worse. It's not only in my opinion. The whole family thought so. If i am going to leave my hse one day, pls allow me to stay in one of your home. I am serious. But for now, it's ok.
I survived thru it with the help of u. Thanks. ^^ Whether you're going to cherish me or not doesn't matter to me, i am touched because you really did wat you say. Well, thanks.

Anw, i doubt i can find my partner in less than 15days lo. I haven't assess him fully. haha.. Still in the process of checking. Give me er.. till the end of this yr. Or probably before my 21st bdae. haha.. Ya. I need to check it seriously so that i can assume this will last for the next 2yrs. If anything happens, will you all be by my side? Ya lo. Don't wan to get cheated for nth. hehe. It seems like you all doesn't really wan the present but more like asking me to get attached asap. Just grab and go those kind. haha. If i were choosing a piece of dress, probably i'll do this. At least i can refund and change if i find it unsatisfying. =) But bf leh! Er.. tho not lifelong partner but still must think carefully. I don't wan to fall in the trap. =)

Last but not least, "change" will be the word that I wan to be for my next yr.
Sounds like having Barack Obama's campaign: Change!

Thanks for everything.
Mag

2008-10-07T22:26:00.000-07:00

Everybody seems so stressed up. Jas having exam soon, juggling btn studies and dance. Kris's worried abt her studies. Mel seems to have lots of assignment. Lynn has lots of odac stuff. Haven't seen everybody for a rather long time. I'm hoping to do smth to my schedule now. More time for myself and studies and socialising. =)

Having a lot of tutorials and assignments! I can't seems to take a break from all these. Trying my best to keep up with studies. So far, my mod cf is clinging on the cliff, the rest still manageable. Already skip 1fencing class almost every wk. But I am still keeping up well. I am still on a safe distance with them. Shld be joining till e end of this yr. My intention is to become of their member then after that go there on a regular basis, probably once a wk. That's better than 3times a wk. Totally drained after the training.

Tuitions for last mth and this mth are horrible. Everybody wants extra lessons bcuz of the final yr exam. As a responsible tutor, i always cater them slots and more timeslots. I'm dying from this hectic schedule. Even tho income for this mth really increase a bit more, but this isn't e life that i want. Alright!

Next, I saw this wine appreciation thing. I want to join. Rather than gulping down the whole drink, i would prefer to enjoy the exquisite taste that it have. But not now. Probably wait till end of the yr.

Pls don't ask me wat i wan for my bdae gift. I don't really know. I want a tote, but i had already ask my dear mum to sponsor that. I want a good sound system, so my sisters is getting me for that. I want a more comics and anime stuff and all these I already order online and made payment for it already. They shld be coming soon end of this mth. I want a running shoes and my dad had offer to pay for it. So basically, whatever that i ask for this yr, i've gotten it. Hmm... already out of ideas. Don't get me any footwear of any kind. Right now, i probably have in total 5-6pairs. Cause i just bought the a pair from aldo. haha.. I gave in my temptation. No chocolate this yr. Cause I am trying my best to lose all the fats that i can by the end of this yr. haha..

2008-10-05T20:23:00.000-07:00

After yesterday,

this is how i feel.

He changed a lot. He thinks a lot. He is more matured now. Whatever he does now is from my point of view. He doesn't compromise me. He knows what i want and knows he can't change my priorites. Though he know he doesn't like some of my stuff, but he don't interfere. I am not saying that he isn't like that in the past but he is more sensitive to my needs and my words. He's egoistic but a guy shld behave this way. While acting according to his own standards, he doesn't expect me to follow. That is e absolute freedom that i ask for from a relationship.
Ever since he re-entered my life, he is indispensable to me. Even tho i don't want to admit that, his everything had imprinted in me. He eliminate my fear and worries of being back tgt. He has given me an overwhelming sense of security.

I've been tough to myself. I really suffered the whole entire wk. Not knowing wat to do. However! From now on, i am going to take things in my stride. I really believe that he is the one for me currently. But I am not accepting him into part of my life. I want to make sure i am making decisions rationally, not purely by feelings and instincts. I like him but I love myself even more. I hate to get hurt. So i am categorizing him as a special friend. Once the dark clouds are cleared from my head, that will be the time when I will accept him. It is like asking him to wait, isn't it? Time will prove everything and i didn't ask him to wait. He can do whatever he wants at any point of time. "Grass on the other side is always greener." To be able to resist temptation is part and parcel of life. Since he isn't interfering me, then i won't too. Therefore, I will be keeping my options available.

mag

2008-09-23T20:09:00.001-07:00

Wish me all e best for today.

2008-09-21T19:38:00.000-07:00

Ok! Latest gd news.
My dad is sponsoring me my jap lessons! Yippy YaY. Don't need to fork out a single cent. haha.. Exploit my parents to e max. Big thanks to my egoistic Dad.

Uncertainty is looming ahead in my path now. I don't know whether i shld continue to pursue this route. Is it right or wrong. I'm afraid. I'm scared. I don't know what to believe in. Once bitten, twice shy. Shld i go for it or shld i think thoroughly again. Ya, it is sweet but ...
God.. pls show me the right path. Enlighten the ignorant me. I understand this is my decision but the risk i'm taking is too much for me to bear now. There are just too much considering factors.
Time will heal but the scar is always there.

2008-09-16T19:15:00.000-07:00

I am preparing all my students for exam. And I do wonder sometimes, why does some children who are intelligent and are getting gd grades are having tuition? Not only that, they increased e no. of times to 3 to 4 times a wk. I am happy that I am getting paid rather quickly but are all these extras session needed? Kiasu-ism of Singaporeans! Make me really wonder are there no alternatives to make a living other than studying. Poor students who doesn't have a life.. I bet they hate studying. They don't enjoy the info and knowledge that we brought for them. To them, it's a chore. Focus of your life: Study. From nursery-Uni. Get a great job. Hop to e other for better prospect. High remuneration. Gd benefits. Upgrade by going for more courses which will enhance ur skills and probably a way to increase ur salary too. Compete with others for another 30-40yrs. Which will therefore lead to a gd life.. then nice retirement? This is utterly rubbish. Well.. part of it. With such competitive mode in Singapore, how can parents not worried abt their children's future? Studying is a way of life and must be in their life.
Recently, there is a hot topic debating.
The higher a women's education = the lower the birth rate.
Well firstly, don't blame everything on us. Women are needed to support the workforce. Why don't govt not introduce any more policies that are keeping us competitive temporaily? Focus more on family planning. An analogy given is while we are awaiting for our bus to arrive, we can spent our time doing other things like reading, listening to music which is smth similar to the situation. Smth like a stopover. Spent more time on policies on family before focus on our economy. When there are more time given for other stuff, it'll just happen somehow. So Are there no responsibility from the men? Can we don't study hard? Allow the guys to think that they are the ones who hold the sky and call the shots? So Arranged marriage is the next "IN" thing in S'pore. I really think this is a nightmare. The situation is so bad, we have to invite our parents to choose a life partner for us. Obviously, in my opinion. I probably feel that 1 out of 500 would choose this way. I would say can allow us to know more friends but to get a marriage out of it would be rather difficult. Though e marriage agencies in S'pore say the response was not bad. I prefer to think that parents themselves came on their own accord without telling their children.. not to even say discuss. Nightmare will come after that.

2008-09-14T18:10:00.001-07:00

I had completed this amazing feat with 2 other frenzs. haha.

I walked from golden mile tower to Suntec city.. Isn't it amazing? haha..
Sound very far.. haha.. But i used less than half an hr to reach. =)
Singapore is really small..

This wk is a super busy wk. I hope I can arrange some time out for myself. No matter wat, i will squeeze some time out to go play. Don't even have time to rest. This is too tiring for me.

Fencing lesson increased to 3 times a wk officially. I already feel that 2 times a wk is tiring for me. And now, increase 1 more time. I am going to suffocate soon. Omg... for the sake of many things, i must perservere to continue it.

One more gd news, i've got myself a new phone.. finally. =) Congrats to mag for having new phone.

Next gd news will be Congrats to my dear sis for having good results 3.8 for her first sem of poly. =)
I thought her results very gd but still.. there is room for improvement though.. There r pple who get their gpa: 4.0. That is like full marks.. Jia You sis. You can do it!

To: my beloved tutees, Do work hard for the upcoming exams. Don't you dare to slack. I will strangle you if you did not perform up to my expectations. All the best.

2008-09-10T19:38:00.000-07:00

It's a lifeless wk.

Fencing almost occupy most of my life now. And tuition too.. It's not that i'm bored but I need to do change smth else to do. It's just so tiring... I need to attend 3times a wk from this wk onwards. This is tough, man.

I am going to take jap lessons again.. After realising i haven't touch any of my jap notes for so many yrs, it's time to wipe the dust away and start revising. So who wants to learn, join me and daniel! I assume it'll be at e end of the yr after daniel ord.

I feel like going for a drink.. who wans to acc me? haha.. My treat. It's just so bored. Anw, it's easy for me to shed off these alcohol calories.. So i shld go drink now while i wan to.. No clubbing for me arh..

Hmm.. dO update me ur life.. the rest of u.. Life is boring. . . . . . . .

2008-09-09T18:50:00.000-07:00

This entry is dedicated to: Chuan, Jon, Ian

The three of you will b entering the Ns in less than a wk time. Please do take care while you're in there. I hope you can perservere and endure any hardship. Though i am not sure how it'll be like. Some of my friends are handling well but others are still struggling even tho they are going to ord. Be tough and pull through it. 2 yrs shld be a rather fast period. I sound like a mum here.. I will miss all of you a lot. Yesterday, i still told chuan to msg me once a mth.. Shldn't be demanding rite.. haha.. Just msg me more and call me often.. I'll be always available. I want to hang out with you all soon. I can't share any hardships with you but my mind and my soul will b supporting you.. always.

Mag

2008-09-03T17:24:00.000-07:00

Realise that my taste's really different, lower than expectation. So I took off jun's pic. =)

I did smth incredible last night. I really did. I am proud of myself.

Anyway.. continue to mug hard!

2008-09-02T19:57:00.000-07:00

THAT IS ME

2008-09-02T17:34:00.000-07:00

CONGRATS TO Mug Ho for her good results.

I want to share my joy with everyone of you. I really think that it is fantastic. I am not trying to boast my results but i find it difficult to contain my over-whelmed feelings in me.
Please allow me to tell you guys how i feel.
I'm really happy, very happy, overly happy and It's just simply great.
I managed to pass my econs and Ibm! The rest are just simply fantastic.
It's not abt passing but rather the marks achieved during before and after, makes a great impact on me. My econs improved by 50plus marks. Can you imagine that? Oh MY gOd. I think this is a miracle. That's absolutely WONDERFUL.

At this point of time, please let me thank these pple who have help me in one way or another.

NO. 1: UK ECONS LECTURER, MR. AMUS WITZUM
I want to say a million thanks to you. Though your lectures were rather terrifying but i guess you did it to show how difficult it is to score for econs. It's bcuz of you, i mug very hard for 3wks for econs after realising how bad i did for my econs in my prelims, neglecting other subjects. But i don't regret. I want to say Thank You. You were a great lecturer. I am glad that you came to Singapore to revise with us. THANKS.

NO. 2: Jasmine Yeo
I want to thank you for accompanying me to study during school before my exams. It was gratifying to know that you're there. Even though there have been unproductive times when we can't really study. But that period is over for now, temporaily. I managed to study because knowing a friend studying beside me was rather encouraging. It made me want to study more.
Thanks jas. I hope we'll be able to do that again this yr. Work hard. Jia You! =)

NO. 3: Ann
You're a great part of my life. Want to say thanks to you bcuz you're my role model. This friend of mine got into NTU, scoring his gpa of 3.8plus. That's so good right. I'm proud of him. I am happy that whenever he needs somebody to accompany him to study. He would always think of me. That is why I study a lot with him and enjoy the times that we study tgt. It just spurs me on to do even better. Thank You. (even tho you're an irritating friend. haha. He's now my no.1 bestie.)

NO.4: Mug GOH (Lynn)
She has done lots to ME. I am able to rest my soul within her.(Sounds rather wrong but it's true.) I am mentally dependable on her. I like to hear her updates and complain and whine to her. Cause i know she'll understand. We gave encouragement to each other to work hard. Well.. I mean that's wat are friends for. She is a nice and sweet lady! I want to say Thanks for everything. You're only closest friend i know in our sch. I am able to know so many pple bcuz of you. So i always rely on you. I hope you don't find me irritaing or troublesome. Thanks. A big thanks to my dearest Mug Goh!

NO.5 : DAD AND MUM
Nth much to say. haHa... They have been irritating and troublesome parents for like how many light years... Though sometimes they don't understand me or help me with my problems. But i'm trying my best to be a fillial kid and do my duties as a big sis. Hope they'll appreciate. Wanting them to say some encouragement to me now is not possible. But I want to thanks for my DAD especially for bugging me with lots of qns abt my studies. Even tho i feel irritated, but i try to answer them. My dad is a great push.. Thanks my mum for acting cool towards my studies. My mum is a great pull.

NO.6: Jon, Chuan, Pikachu,
Thanks for everything. You know what i am going to say. Just take care. I'll miss you guys a lot.

NO. 7: Char, Kris, Zg, Bao,
You all are my good friends. Continue to be so. All of you had some impact on me. That's why i am saying thanks to you..

NO.8: Christy
Thank you for being so encouragin at times. You're super nice.

NO.9: josh, jiro, yuu, emi, jun
Thanks for accompanying me during fencing. I know i was bad but i will continue to buck up. All of you're nice buddies.. =)

Lastly.. my lecturers and those whom i didn't mention, i want to say THANK YOU. I have all of you in my heart. I will continue to improve and perserve..
Like wat czg say, first class honours! haha.. That's really difficult to attain.
So I aim for second upper class honours and top 5 in my course. All the way.. Jia You

Mag..

2008-08-20T21:31:00.000-07:00

Last wk of my hectic schedule. Next wk i shall be free as a bird.
Left 4 wks to go b4 sch starts. Well, lots of stuffs to do b4 dat.
One piece of gd news, my level up already. Was super embarrassed when e person tell me. But i considered that as a good news.. And I use up all my salary for this mth. I'm pretty broke. Awaiting for my next pay! haha.. Half of my pay use to design my new room! Bought some furniture and some high tech devices to make it look super cooL. The other half.. hehe..
I found a website which is super duper useful for comics fans
http://www.onemanga.com/ (Lots of manga inside.)

Sometimes i stop to think,
We slogs so hard just to make sure our future is certain. But how can we so certain? Why can't we just take care of the herds and pass our time slowly? Other than financial achievements, don't we have other things in mind? Don't tell me when are we going to retire! Why do couples get tgt and get married eventually? Does it really matter anyway? So many qns revolving ard my mind.. Let me just die.

My life
Lynn i'm going crazy.. just let me die. PPLE, when u msg me, pls make it clear wat do u really mean. I don't want to exhaust myself by wasting my brain cells on these. I can't enjoy. And i hate this.. Anyway flirting is no good. You might as well kill me.

Everything just keeps here and only here.

2008-07-16T19:28:00.000-07:00

Nowadays, I am quite into online shopping. I shop for my anime and comics, and a few pieces of clothing. It can be addictive. Especially I don't have to walk out of my hse to collect it, just ask them to deliver here. That's pretty convenient. I bought 2sets of comic and a few manga. I don't know when it will be delivered. Ard 2 wks or so ba. Anw, i bought a new bag online!!!! haha.. I will receive it on saturday. Congrats congrats.
Hmm... jia yOu. continue doin so.

2008-07-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

New updates.

I get wat i wish. A jc student found. That's great isn't it. Started our first lesson.
It's a he and from acjc. When i got to know that, i was rather shocked. Not exactly shocked but there's this tiny possibility that i might not handle it well cuz he might be brighter than me. However, I realised this isn't the case. He's an amusing guy. I hope i don't fall in love with my tutee. That's like wat!? haha...Anw, Got to say that I'm really a responsible tutor. I really do my homework and prepare for it. It's not that I'm not up to it. I feel that I can't possibly be over-confident. Rite. All is well. Looks like life is going to be somehow challenging. But I feel that I'm up to it. Really - this is cool. I hope I don't ended up in this career though. This is just like a good hobby to pass my time fruitfully. hehe

Next, on the verge of giving up my running. Haha.. I stopped running entirely this week. I just somehow wondering is it the slimming part that is part of the craze or is it the passion. I just found out. It's really e passion. I really feel the enjoyment of running esp the sweating part. Though i have to say that i'm not a good runner. Call me a gd determined jogger instead. As long i'm determined to run it all out, i will. I just simply do it. It's just purely the "want" to run. My fencing lessons jus left with four more lessons. I don't know whether to continue e next grade or not. I have to sign up asap if i really wan to bcuz of some secret reasons.. haha.. See how lo. I hope i don't run out of cash before my sch reopens.

Next, Please don't say me kiasu or watever. I have thought it out carefully. I need to study starting from next week, revising my economics and math. I'm really serious about it. My inital goal seems a bit further than i planned it to be. So i have to start buck up. Czg, math can count on me. No prob. I will prepare qns, solns and notes for you. Promised. This is wat are frenzs for. hehe.. I'm a pro tutor. haha.. Initial planning, revision for econs and math would take 1 to 2 weeks. Before the end of this month, i would start my modules. This is competition. Race against time and make full use of it. I play enuf and enjoy enuf. Obviously, i would continue to play and enjoy life. Would not mug everyday. Buttttt.. We need to upgrade our life every now and then.

This is it. Wait till my next update. IT would be simply enticing and anticipating.
Bye

2008-06-26T20:49:00.000-07:00

I just came back from my run. Was really demotivated by it. Don't know whether is it the sun or me? I totally depend on my determination to finish the whole track. Don't know since when the jog became tougher than i thought. Just last wk, i still felt it was alrite. The sun was shining brightly on me. The heat keep rising. Quite a few times, i hope i will faint down there, then i don't have to carry on anymore. But to my disappointment, i managed to complete it. haha. -_- I forced myself to wake up and go and run because i have to run 4 times a wk. That's my target. A lot depend on one's mindset. Since i have set it, then i got to do it. Rite. Well, jia yOu to me then.

Anyway, i decided to control my diet. That's really saddening, isn't it? I push myself quite hard and i feel that after every run or session of my fencing, i shld enjoy myself by having a good meal. A good meal doesn't have to mean high calories!!! But I think i always exceed wat i supposed to eat. That is why i can't see the result. This is maddening! huh! O well, wat to do. In order to have good shape, i think that's only way. But i can't see how can i do it. Tonight, I'm meeting my cousins for dinner and pubbing afterwards. I bet we're going have good food which might equals to high calories. Argh!!!! But i have to go. If not there will no enjoyment in life. Just hope that alcohol can cut down my calories. Next this sunday's big big family day. We're celebrating my uncle's 60th Birthday. And that's another meal of good food awaiting for me. How could i resist such wonderful temptation in life!!! This is never ending... O god, do provide me with good solutions.

I Just completed watching hana yori dango(japan version) again and dou niu yao bu yao again. Well, now it's time to watch my hikaru no go again. I watched that more 10 times ever since sec sch. That's pretty crazy. But it's really gd! Do watch it if you have the time.

I'm pretty exhausted and hungry. Need to sign off now. See ya then. =)

2008-06-24T19:47:00.000-07:00

O shucks! My timetable Change again!!

Monday- nth on
tuesday - 8.30-11.30
Wednesday - 3.30-6.30
Thursday - 8.30 - 11.30
Friday - nth on
Saturday - 8.30 - 11.30

I decided to try to take jc kid for tuition. Haha.. Wonder who will be my first. Anw, lately my insomnia has worsened. I can't sleep in the night and i wake up very early in the morning ard 9plus. It's rather tiring for me.

My fencing lesson has became worse. Super duper strenuous, but doesn't seem to slim down. I thought jogging would help me increase my stamina but i can't even take it half of the lesson! It's rather bad. One of my friend, hiyae keep bullying me in class. I hate him. Last week,i ran 3times. One time short of wat i targetted. This week i hope i can manage to jog 4 times. I dun wan to be lazy.

Anyway, I'm thinking of taking cookery lesson since I'm rather free i think. I want to cook good food. I think that will be cool.

2008-06-16T19:25:00.000-07:00

Hey hey. dun expect any great changes from me. I'm still me. I just started my running this mth. This is just e 3rd wk. Do you think out of a sudden a lump of 10kg will be gone? i'm not that crazy Lo. yup. I didn't slim down much. I can't sense any change in me.

Anyway, i settle my timetable already!!! Check it out =)
Monday - Nthing is on
Tuesday - 8.30am-11.30am
Wednesday- Nthing is on
Thursday - 8.30am-11.30am
Friday-12pm-3pm
Saturday - 8.30am - 11.30am

How i hope i can start sch rite away. Life is boring.

I got lots of update to tell you guys. Will type it out e next time.

2008-06-10T17:33:00.000-07:00

Writing a blog, isn't it like writing a diary? But why my ideas doesn't seems to flow in here? i guess i need lots of practice to adjust myself to get use to this blog.
Well.. i'm going M'sia tomorrow, so i'm out of contact till sunday. I squeeze all my tuitions for this wk from mon to wed, i almost died. Yesterday, i went 4 of them. My energy all drained out. I realise it's not wage that keep you holding on to your tuition. Not Passion either( i dun intend to be a teacher. That's rather a horrifying thought.). But rather that on the child itself. I have a few tutees who're v cute and nice. They treat me well and do my homework (haha.. partly, i forced them to and i treat them with respect. haha.. got to say they have good upbringing.) I find that teaching pri sch students wasn't that bad at all. They like to talk and say super lame jokes -_-'' which i can't even understand. Whereas for sec kids, i've to says depend whether you can click with them not. Like char's bro, to me, he's sort of quiet but he's rather lame at times. Probably to him, i'm funny not humorous cuz i like to entertain. Well, that's part of my personality. I can't change.... how i wish i could be humorous and not funny. I'm trying my best to bond with every tutee, i hope not at studies but at other aspects, i know them well and be good friends with them. To stay youthful is such a good dream.